Monday, August 10, 2009

Solitude

I realise now why I didn’t want this summer. I didn’t want this then, and I don’t want it now. I find myself whiling away entire days, just staring at a screen or listening to the same music over and over again. Motivation is hard to come by, and even harder to utilise into something worthwhile. As the days drift away, I can feel myself getting closer to the year that is to come, but for now I am in suspended animation. I’m isolated from the world, from my friends, devoid of almost all human contact. Through the window I reminisce, and ponder what is to come, whereas the here and now is a forgotten thought, a footnote to memories of the past

I set out my goals, I planned, I built my defences and yet still I find myself wallowing in mediocrity and boredom almost every day. To quote Christopher McCandless;


“The very basic core of a man's living spirit is his passion for adventure. The joy of life comes from our encounters with new experiences, and hence there is no greater joy than to have an endlessly changing horizon, for each day to have a new and different sun.”


I have long been intrigued by, and will continue to explore the effects of isolation on man, but for now I believe I am experiencing my own type or personal isolation. Not as extreme or dramatic as that of Brian Keenan or McCandless, but isolation nonetheless. I can only hope that if nothing can be achieved, I can at least learn something.


I didn’t want this then, and I don’t want it now, but sometimes we must accept the hand we’ve been dealt.

Tuesday, August 4, 2009

Excerpt #I

"...Conversations like that don't come along all that often, but memory serves to recall one of the strongest connections I've ever felt with anyone that night. Revealing the most personal, intimate influences on your life to another - that's a connection that's rare at best. How can love not be born of a conversation like that?"

Sunday, August 2, 2009

Listplaying

So, I'm thinking about certain things at the minute. I've decided to do away with illustrious language and whatnot for this post and just say what I mean, and what I mean is that I've been musing. However, one needs music to muse to, right?

So this is the music I'm musing to.

Ryan Adams - Come Pick Me Up


The Tallest Man On Earth - I Won't Be Found


Sea Of Bees - Willis


Bell X1 - Boys Of Summer (Don Henley Cover)


Don't read into it too much, there are lots of things buzzing around up there, so none of these songs are directed towards a certain person or situation, but as far as I'm concerned, they're all great.

Enjoy.